Last of the line

I just got snipped. All yesterday I started raising ethical questions with myself about making a conscious decision to permanently end my lineage. I've used jimmy hats and dated women who were on bc, but this is more final. That's what bothers me. It's one thing to temporarily cut off the opportunity to make a baby, but this isn't reversable. It is, but it has a low successrate.

The other side of the coin is I don't want to take make any more babies. If one is placed on my doorstep, I'm fine with that. But I don't want to be an active participant. I don't know if I'll be as patient as I need to be to raise any kids after this next one. And I don't want to subject a kid to a less-than-adequate dad. But, a lot of good people come from shitty situations.

At least I met my deductible.